Saturday, August 29, 2009

The Baby Loves Lolo

The baby is keeping me wide awake. It's 12:15 on my laptop and I just realized... Maybe the baby wants me to write something about his/her late great grandfather. And when I say great, I mean GREAT.

Today is officially August 29, 2009 and it marks the 1st year death anniversary of my beloved grandfather, Benito Munoz. He died of complications of stroke last year. He was in a comatose, paralized, and just gave up on life one day. We all figured maybe it was really his time to go. It was depressing to lose him, but in another light, we didn't want him in any pain anymore. It hurt a lot (and it still does) but we had to accept that he finally let go. And so on August 29, 2008 he went with the angels to take him to heaven.

I was never really close with him but I'm proud to say that I was the only one whom he entrusted some of his last thoughts about his life. One day I visited him to take a reading of his blood pressure and what seemed to be an ordinary checkup turned out to be a heart to heart talk. He cried in front of me and we shared a very serious conversation. I comforted him and just tried to keep myself together and be strong for him when deep inside, it crushed my heart to see him cry. I will never forget that day, and I will never forget what he said to me.

I miss him. I miss everything about him. I still think about him all the time. Even the old man in the movie "Up" reminds me a lot of him. He always wanted to be alone. I just wish we had more time to make him feel that he wasn't.

I pray that he's in heaven now. He deserves to be at peace. My Lolo Benito will always be remembered as a good man, a good friend, a good brother, a good husband, a good father, and a very great grandfather. I just wish the baby could have met him before he left this world so he/she can experience what a loving grandfather he was.

Lolo's 72nd birthday.
He died at 76.

Rest in peace, Lolo. We miss you so much.
Mahal na mahal ka po namin and you will always be remembered.

Thursday, August 27, 2009


The past couple of days have been wonderful. I can now feel my baby move!

It's overwhelming whenever I feel a flutter in my tummy. It as if I'm being consistently reminded that I'm a sacred vessel to another human being who is just beginning to take form and experience life. I'm excited for the next weeks to come; I'm sure to feel him/her kick me harder from the inside.

Sometimes the baby wakes me up in the middle of the night and it can be very uncomfortable. But the funny thing is... it makes me smile every time. :)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Hot Heat

Is it just me? Or is it scorching hot in here?!

I know heat is supposed to be hot but goddamn--the weather is on fire!!! My husband just installed another electric fan in the room so now we have two. We don't have to share only one anymore. There's always the option of installing an airconditioner but we just can't put that into high priority for now. Settling for fans is good enough, as long as they stay on for the entire day. LOL

The Pregnancy Diaries 3

This mommy has just started her second trimester! I'm starting to feel my tummy stretch. It's getting a lot rounder than in the past months and it's now easier to tell that I'm pregnant just by looking at me. I even bought a bottle of Palmer's® Cocoa Butter Formula™ Massage Lotion for Stretch Marks. I can't wear buttoned or zipped shorts or jeans anymore. Now my casual wardrobe consists of dresses, loose shirts, and leggings. I actually like it. Very comfy!

I'm still easily fatigued so I feel drowsy often but I'm ejoying the fact that the nausea and vomiting have subsided. Back in the first trimester it was hell for me. My body felt like it was on roller coaster mode everyday. Now I feel a lot better. The only things that have been bothering me lately are my back pains and headaches. They keep nagging me at nighttime.

My husband? He's a sweetheart. He treats me like a queen. And I especially enjoy it when he kisses and caresses my tummy and talks to our baby.

So what's next for the pregnant foxy mama? This coming Friday I'll be having my 3rd prenatal checkup. I'm going to see my baby for the third time and I'm really excited to see if it's a boy or girl. I keep telling my baby to show it... ;D