tainted, could be

What is wrong with me?! You know when you try to find out stuff about your guy and then you end up hating yourself for looking through his stuff because you read things that you wouldn't mind not knowing in the first place? Well as they all say "curiosity killed the cat," and I'm sure it won't come as a surprise to you that I'm the cat.

I have to set the record straight: ok I admit, so sometimes I'm being irrationally jealous. But that's only because I couldn't picture him with someone else (I can't even imagine him being a boyfriend to the capital X) and to tell you honestly, I still get jealous over issues that were long overdue. And what's worse is that the very few talk hours on the phone don't help at all. I'm still as jealous as I've ever been and I'm not happy about it although I'm sure he is too. In some aspects I'm being unfair (don't ask) but these jealous feelings are real and I'm afraid they might be leading me to the wrong direction and ruin our relationship.

My bitch fits are major. All of them. A little argument can go a very long way especially if I'm provoked. When I'm frustrated with something or when angry with someone, my temper is often at boiling point and I don't even know it, but I know that I have to control it before it's too late. Before he calls off the relationship. 

I don't want to be the bitchy girlfriend that I sometimes am. I trust him, but I can't seem to calm myself down whenever the SelfishSuperGirlfriend alter ego kicks in. I'm sorry for being like this. I may be the jealous type, but it's only because I love you too much and I'm trying to be the only best girlfriend in the world for you.

RecogNition

March 5th, year 2009. The day was scorching hot and the Arsenio Laurel Gymnasium was packed with nurses and nursing students, but it didn't stop the Lyceum of the Philippines University - Batangas College of Nursing from acknowledging their 617 former nursing students who are now REGISTERED NURSES. All board passers entered the gym in single file with the students and their former clinical instructors cheering them on at the sides. The familiar faces that used to be shy and awkward are now RNs who proudly entered the gym with wide smiles and high hopes. 

After welcoming the new RNs back to LPU, the main event took place -- handing out of certificates wherein each board passer's name was called on stage (with an addition of the letters RN at the end of each name) and each of those successful examinees received a Certificate of Recognition in front of colleagues, mentors, and 4th year nursing students. The college was also kind enough to distribute free snacks and drinks in the midle of the program. They also held a thanksgiving mass and a motorcade around the vicinity of the university before the program proper, which to everybody's delight, were eagerly supported by the university heads, College of Nursing instructors, nursing students, and of course the new RN's of LPU.

The College of Nursing was admittedly overwhelemed and overjoyed by the successful results of the November 29-30, 2008 Nurses Licensure Examination because they have produced 617 new nurses -- the highest number in the entire Region IV this season. And not only that -- in addition to this achievement, Mary Ann Garing bagged the position as 7th topnotcher among 88,649 examinees and was awarded a Medal of Excellence by Dean Cecilia Pring and the Level Coordinators. It has been 14 years since LPU had an NLE passer that claimed the position of topnotcher and Garing brought LPU back in the topnotch RN makers' list.

The program was enjoyed by all. Nursing students participated in intermission numbers and even clinical instructors and the dean had a dance showdown with their former students centerstage. Most importantly, the program served as a reunion for mentors and students, and it was the perfect day to share everybody's happiness and gratitude with each other. And even though it was a quite sad that some of their classmates and friends didn't pass the exam last November, the successful examinees still could not explain the pride of making it past that hurdle and being recognized and appreciated by the college that taught them all they know to get this far.

Congratulations, nurses! May we all have successful careers ahead of us!

immeasureable degree of sadness

Viewing your pictures just isn't the same as being wrapped in your arms. I am missing you very badly, and there's no cure for it... not until we're together again. I need to feel your presence.

I'm slowly... but surely... becoming... depressed.

Masterpiece

My youngest sister Zshalia made this fantastic work of art 

using MS Paint on Glam.

She said she wanted to make a picture of a garden using only squares 

and only few extra shapes.

Genius! :D

eighteen before eight

eighteen simple things i want to accomplish before i turn 22:

(october 8th of year 09)

1. G-mask pampering for Glam

2. go to the beach

3. at least one trip to the hair salon (cut and straighten)

4. purchase my own broadband connection device for Glam

5. beat all the big monsters in 3 star quests of monster hunter portable 2nd g

6. buy at least 15 more novels

7. install a SIMS 2 game compatible with Vista Home Premium

8. *get this one thing done that i should have done a long time ago*

9. work in a private hospital

10. open a new BDO account

11. be a certified IV therapist

12. buy a pair of functional heels

13. finish a venti caramel frapp without having elimination problems (blush)

14. get a Henna tattoo (on the chest or behind the ear, whichever)

15. buy myself a new bathing suit (one piece, for old times' sake)

16. drown myself in booze til i pass out

17. buy new contact lenses (maybe i'll go for blue this time..?)

18. witness an actual shooting star

this list is incomplete and is not necessarily in my urgent agenda,

but it would be really nice if i get them all. :)

ps cs3

My baby Glam finally has Adobe Photoshop cs3! 

Niiiiice.

zits and drama

I'm having acne problems and the pimples are destroying my face and my self esteem. I can't even hide the pimples and the chickenpox scars with makeup anymore.I miss having really clear skin but that was way back in high school. When i stepped into college the zits started turning up and they won't lie low ever since. and now, i don't know what to do. it's not vanity. It's an issue of health. I don't know if this is hormonal or something, but i don't like what's happening to my sytem.

As i'm typing this, it's around 2 o'clock in the morning and i still can't sleep. I'm exhausted from the whole day of activities really, but thinking about one person too much and thinking about him before going to sleep really deprives you of much needed snoozefest.

And btw, my mom and my sister got into a huge fight tonight. it even involved me and my grandparents. drama, drama, drama.

jellyjaw

YUMMERS!

this day has been great.

i'm so in LOVE.